This is about the hardest waiting period I have ever endured. I feel like I am on trial, waiting for the jury to return with my fate. Yesterday Matthew and I faced some truths which had remained omitted/hidden/avoided.
It is never easy to be broken before someone you respect, look up to and/or want to impress. It is so hard to face them with your broken past, your life's truths spilt out around you; exposed. I have never felt so naked, so vulnerable.
Now I wait.
This makes me think of my God, my Saviour. He loved me enough to allow his body to be broken and his blood to be spilt out so that I might return to my heavenly Father one day. This sacrifice goes beyond anything a human could/would do for another, yet that's not the amazing part. The most miraculous point is that Christ did it without any guarentee that I would accept his sacrifice. He exposed himself, willingly, freely; in hope, and out of love...with prayers that one day, I would realize the truth of how he suffered. That he did it for me so that I coule come Home to Him.
Christ knows better then any of us what it means to suffer, and hurt, and feel hurt by others. Wow...my God LOVES me. In this moment; today, tomorrow and forever; He's the ROCK on which I will stand!
Saturday, June 30, 2007
Tuesday, June 19, 2007
Answers
Ya, it's late. I know, I should be in bed. I just wanted to type out some of my recent thoughts about Answers.
Answers are the basis of educational grading...correct answers grant you the right of passage, while the wrong answers (or no answers) is grounds for failure; detainment.
Answers are a means of discovering...a way of finding out information.
Answers are a trigger for some to take flight; they're frightening...providing an answer is risking personal exposure.
Do you pray? (If you don't, you should). If you do, you ask God for things. Do you get answers? Do you know the answers before you pose the questions? I bet you know the answers you'd like! Do you remember every question you have ever posed to God? Have you received answers to all of them? Some of them? Any? How about writing questions down, so the answers can be recognised when they come???
In the last year, my family fell apart. Sure, it's something that began to unravel long ago, but the year saw the final cut. My brother was lost to the family, and with him we lost his wife and kids. My father walked away from my mother. And I couldn't help but feel like he walked away from me too. I now know that he left his wife, not his daughter; for man has found a way to erase the covenent of marriage, but cannot reclaim his genes.
In the last year, I returned Home; into a relationship with my Heavenly Father. I came from so far away, I wish I didn't recall. But then, I wouldn't have a testimony of just how awesome my God is.
I prayed for some form of restoration in my family.
The seperation went through.
I prayed for restoration in my family.
The divorce papers were filed.
I kept praying...
I prayed for guidance in my fallen relationship with my father.
We visited last week!
I prayed for my broken family; my brother and his family.
We saw him and his wife at Easter!
...And tomorrow, my mom will get to visit them and the grandchildren!!!
Answers are the basis of educational grading...correct answers grant you the right of passage, while the wrong answers (or no answers) is grounds for failure; detainment.
Answers are a means of discovering...a way of finding out information.
Answers are a trigger for some to take flight; they're frightening...providing an answer is risking personal exposure.
Answers are too frequently missed;
the questions drift outside of memory.
Do you pray? (If you don't, you should). If you do, you ask God for things. Do you get answers? Do you know the answers before you pose the questions? I bet you know the answers you'd like! Do you remember every question you have ever posed to God? Have you received answers to all of them? Some of them? Any? How about writing questions down, so the answers can be recognised when they come???
In the last year, my family fell apart. Sure, it's something that began to unravel long ago, but the year saw the final cut. My brother was lost to the family, and with him we lost his wife and kids. My father walked away from my mother. And I couldn't help but feel like he walked away from me too. I now know that he left his wife, not his daughter; for man has found a way to erase the covenent of marriage, but cannot reclaim his genes.
In the last year, I returned Home; into a relationship with my Heavenly Father. I came from so far away, I wish I didn't recall. But then, I wouldn't have a testimony of just how awesome my God is.
I prayed for some form of restoration in my family.
The seperation went through.
I prayed for restoration in my family.
The divorce papers were filed.
I kept praying...
I prayed for guidance in my fallen relationship with my father.
We visited last week!
I prayed for my broken family; my brother and his family.
We saw him and his wife at Easter!
...And tomorrow, my mom will get to visit them and the grandchildren!!!
PRAISE GOD FOR
ANSWERS!!!
Thursday, June 7, 2007
Rain, Rain, Go Away...
this week has been rather gloomy. it matches my mood. i guess you could say that i had a very high High this week, as well as a very low Low. the High obviously being progressive discussions with Matthew about where our relationship is at and where we hope it's headed. the Low being a rather cold email from my dad, basically telling me to have a nice life, as he leaves the country in 23 days. yup, he's moving to the czech republic. he'll be back here to teach four months a year, but that's it. and sadly, he doesn't even want to keep in touch with me via email. how weird is that? how do I deal with that? what is a daughter to do when her own father doesn't work to hold on to her friendship? oh, apparently, if the timing is not right (for his schedule) he has stated he will not return to canada for my wedding, (whenever that is); that comment was in his email too. is there anything i could do to mend our relationship? does he want a new life so badly that he is willing to write us all out? i pray he is doing what will make him happy. but i also pray that when i celebrate my 50th, i'm surrounded by family and friends.
tomorrow is the final ANC youth group event of the year. The Amazing Race!!!! pastor steve has put so much effort into organizing this event, and we all just spent the evening completing the final touches. i hope and pray that everyone has fun and stays safe tomorrow and saturday. i am so excited about this event, but you wouldn't know it from my behaviour tonight. i feel bad about my actions tonight...i wasn't in the best of moods, obviously, and it showed. now i feel like i let my friends down by not being the happy me they know and love. so the secret is out, i can be a great complainer when the mood strikes me. do you know how hard it is to keep smiling when it's the last thing you feel like doing? sometimes, i guess my sadness leaks out as complaints. perhaps a good cry would be a better option? does anyone understand how new events and situations stress me out beyond belief? am i the only one that feels like this? any tips on how to handle it?
tomorrow is friday, end of the work week...oh yeah, i got a breakfast date tomorrow with my best friend, sarne. there are things i need to share with him too which are worrying me. it will be hard to talk to him about it; but usually the best results aren't products of easy tasks. wish me luck and/or pray for me as i face a few tough situations in the approaching days!
tomorrow is the final ANC youth group event of the year. The Amazing Race!!!! pastor steve has put so much effort into organizing this event, and we all just spent the evening completing the final touches. i hope and pray that everyone has fun and stays safe tomorrow and saturday. i am so excited about this event, but you wouldn't know it from my behaviour tonight. i feel bad about my actions tonight...i wasn't in the best of moods, obviously, and it showed. now i feel like i let my friends down by not being the happy me they know and love. so the secret is out, i can be a great complainer when the mood strikes me. do you know how hard it is to keep smiling when it's the last thing you feel like doing? sometimes, i guess my sadness leaks out as complaints. perhaps a good cry would be a better option? does anyone understand how new events and situations stress me out beyond belief? am i the only one that feels like this? any tips on how to handle it?
tomorrow is friday, end of the work week...oh yeah, i got a breakfast date tomorrow with my best friend, sarne. there are things i need to share with him too which are worrying me. it will be hard to talk to him about it; but usually the best results aren't products of easy tasks. wish me luck and/or pray for me as i face a few tough situations in the approaching days!
Monday, May 28, 2007
Roadtrip - May Long 2007
Oh, there is much to write about the weekend. I have been too busy to organize my mountain of thoughts into a post. I will start now, but this will be edited over the next day or so.
How on earth can I sum up what it meant to meet some of the greatest people I have ever been blessed to meet!? I will try to just outline the weekend highlights for now...
Friday was a tough day, more of a struggle for Matthew, who had to suffer thru 4 hours of painstaking agony at the office before he would be free to pack, pick me up and leave town. I helped him survive the last 30 minutes by chatting online...hehe.
We stopped for lunch and left town by 1:30 Friday afternoon. Traffic was light, considering, and we arrived at Dana and Andy's in Mississauga around 5:30 I think. Nathan, their 3 yr old son, met us at the door. He was sure happy to see Matthew! For a whole week, he'd been telling everyone that MATTHEEEEEEWWWWWWWW was coming down for his party, where they would eat WADDRMELAN. Little did I know in that first moment of meeting Nathan that this kid with wild curly hair and wonderous eyes would attach himself firmly in my heart.
Andy and Dana were so thrilled to see Matthew...I could see it in their greetings. These three really care for each other. Something rare, and oh so special. They welcomed me into their home like an old friend...it didn't take long to feel like I belonged. We spent the first night with them playing The Question Game. Interestingly enough, the game led Matthew and I into a later discussion we never could have predicted...and one that brought us closer.
Saturday was PARTY day! A lazy morning of playing with Nathan kept him outta the way for Dana and Andy to start party preparations. A shopping trip for last minute party requirements also got Matthew and I into a Christian Bookstore at long last! I could have spend the day in there! We each added to our summer-reading pile that morning! After lunch out with Dana's parents, it was home to prep for the party. Admittingly, I ended up napping thru the afternoon while they worked away. I was later pleasantly surprised by an unexpected question from Matthew, which helped me know we were growing more as a couple. He really is a special man!
Party time was approaching, Matthew and I did some last minute pick ups of chairs and ice and stuff, and once things were laid out, we all sat and chatted...the calm before the storm. Party time arrived, and so did twenty-eight adult guests with eleven little ones in tow. People everywhere...and people I didn't know! Matthew was great, stayed with me and introduced me to people he knew. In reality, everyone was really nice and friendly. Since Matthew and I had selected a bench seat close to the food table, we ended up getting a chance to meet everyone there! LOL! Thanks everyone for making me feel so comfortable! Dana was even sure to do little spot checks on me to make sure I was ok in such a crowd! LOL...she really is a sweetheart! Party night died down, and so did my strength...I needed to get away from the crowd and noise. Matthew came to my rescue with a dueling games of Tetris! Oh that was so sweet! I kicked his butt a few times, but he also returned the favor, so it was really interesting! The party night I had been anxious about ended up being rather wonderful. Who would have guessed!
Sunday brought us to Dana and Andy's church. It reminded me so much of Trinity Bible Church, where I attended out in Canmore. The guy that spoke that morning asked the question, "where were you in life two years ago, and what measures did have God to take to get you sitting in this place on this morning?" WOW! God is AWESOME! Another lunch out and I returned home with Andy and Nathan, while Dana stole Matthew for a trip to the grocery store. It didn't take long for Andy to pop the question...I mean the "What are you intensions with our friend?" question. LOL...we had a great chat all the way home.
Sunday was a lazy day, more napping, and playing with Nathan...we even got him dancing to an album I remember dancing around to when I was not much older then he. I actually remembered most of the words! It was really silly and totally memorable!
Nathan and I taught Matthew how to play UNO. No, wait...Matthew and I taught Nathan how to play...and Matthew took some great pics (will post soon). Then I got Nathan playing memory with the UNO cards...it was pretty fun to just play with him, and by this point in the weekend, he was totally at ease with me. What a darling young guy he is...a heartbreaker in the making!
Sunday night is one of my best memories of the weekend. Andy, Dana, Matt and I sat around the livingroom (well, Andy was upstairs most of the evening trying to get a frightened Nathan to sleep; fireworks outside were scaring him). Dana and I did a lot of talking that night, Matthew was rather quiet, listening I am sure, but sleepy too. Sometime after midnight, Matthew went to bed. At 2am, Andy woke up in the livingroom chair and went to bed. And at 3am, Dana and I finally got the notion to go to bed too. We just talked so much, about so many things, it was a time I will treasure.
Monday morning was sad...I didn't want to leave...and I know it is hard for Matthew, Dana & Andy, to say goodbye. We had fun tho, Andy and Dana pulled out some old pics of their time in Sudbury and showed me pics of Matthew from when he was in University, around the age of 18 yrs old. It was cool to see just how far back their friendship went and how much Matthew meant to them. Friends like that are rare...hold on to each other!!! We went to Dana'd parents place for a BBQ lunch, then headed back to pack and sadly say goodbye.
God bless you, Dana, Andy and Nathan! You each have special hearts and I am thankful and blessed that you willingly shared them with me, as well as opening up your home to me. Matthew, I will be forever greatful that you brought me down to meet your best friends, that you wanted to introduce me to that part of your life. Thank you all for sharing with me and making me feel like I belonged! Memories of this weekend will be with me always!
With Love & Prayers! -las
(Oh ya, Matthew got the pleasure of stopping in to meet my Aunt and Uncle on the way home. It was so wonderful to see them, even if only for a couple hours. And it was extra special to introduce Matthew and them. Thank you for letting Matthew and I invade your home and enjoy a meal with you!!!!) I love you!
How on earth can I sum up what it meant to meet some of the greatest people I have ever been blessed to meet!? I will try to just outline the weekend highlights for now...
Friday was a tough day, more of a struggle for Matthew, who had to suffer thru 4 hours of painstaking agony at the office before he would be free to pack, pick me up and leave town. I helped him survive the last 30 minutes by chatting online...hehe.
We stopped for lunch and left town by 1:30 Friday afternoon. Traffic was light, considering, and we arrived at Dana and Andy's in Mississauga around 5:30 I think. Nathan, their 3 yr old son, met us at the door. He was sure happy to see Matthew! For a whole week, he'd been telling everyone that MATTHEEEEEEWWWWWWWW was coming down for his party, where they would eat WADDRMELAN. Little did I know in that first moment of meeting Nathan that this kid with wild curly hair and wonderous eyes would attach himself firmly in my heart.
Andy and Dana were so thrilled to see Matthew...I could see it in their greetings. These three really care for each other. Something rare, and oh so special. They welcomed me into their home like an old friend...it didn't take long to feel like I belonged. We spent the first night with them playing The Question Game. Interestingly enough, the game led Matthew and I into a later discussion we never could have predicted...and one that brought us closer.
Saturday was PARTY day! A lazy morning of playing with Nathan kept him outta the way for Dana and Andy to start party preparations. A shopping trip for last minute party requirements also got Matthew and I into a Christian Bookstore at long last! I could have spend the day in there! We each added to our summer-reading pile that morning! After lunch out with Dana's parents, it was home to prep for the party. Admittingly, I ended up napping thru the afternoon while they worked away. I was later pleasantly surprised by an unexpected question from Matthew, which helped me know we were growing more as a couple. He really is a special man!
Party time was approaching, Matthew and I did some last minute pick ups of chairs and ice and stuff, and once things were laid out, we all sat and chatted...the calm before the storm. Party time arrived, and so did twenty-eight adult guests with eleven little ones in tow. People everywhere...and people I didn't know! Matthew was great, stayed with me and introduced me to people he knew. In reality, everyone was really nice and friendly. Since Matthew and I had selected a bench seat close to the food table, we ended up getting a chance to meet everyone there! LOL! Thanks everyone for making me feel so comfortable! Dana was even sure to do little spot checks on me to make sure I was ok in such a crowd! LOL...she really is a sweetheart! Party night died down, and so did my strength...I needed to get away from the crowd and noise. Matthew came to my rescue with a dueling games of Tetris! Oh that was so sweet! I kicked his butt a few times, but he also returned the favor, so it was really interesting! The party night I had been anxious about ended up being rather wonderful. Who would have guessed!
Sunday brought us to Dana and Andy's church. It reminded me so much of Trinity Bible Church, where I attended out in Canmore. The guy that spoke that morning asked the question, "where were you in life two years ago, and what measures did have God to take to get you sitting in this place on this morning?" WOW! God is AWESOME! Another lunch out and I returned home with Andy and Nathan, while Dana stole Matthew for a trip to the grocery store. It didn't take long for Andy to pop the question...I mean the "What are you intensions with our friend?" question. LOL...we had a great chat all the way home.
Sunday was a lazy day, more napping, and playing with Nathan...we even got him dancing to an album I remember dancing around to when I was not much older then he. I actually remembered most of the words! It was really silly and totally memorable!
Nathan and I taught Matthew how to play UNO. No, wait...Matthew and I taught Nathan how to play...and Matthew took some great pics (will post soon). Then I got Nathan playing memory with the UNO cards...it was pretty fun to just play with him, and by this point in the weekend, he was totally at ease with me. What a darling young guy he is...a heartbreaker in the making!
Sunday night is one of my best memories of the weekend. Andy, Dana, Matt and I sat around the livingroom (well, Andy was upstairs most of the evening trying to get a frightened Nathan to sleep; fireworks outside were scaring him). Dana and I did a lot of talking that night, Matthew was rather quiet, listening I am sure, but sleepy too. Sometime after midnight, Matthew went to bed. At 2am, Andy woke up in the livingroom chair and went to bed. And at 3am, Dana and I finally got the notion to go to bed too. We just talked so much, about so many things, it was a time I will treasure.
Monday morning was sad...I didn't want to leave...and I know it is hard for Matthew, Dana & Andy, to say goodbye. We had fun tho, Andy and Dana pulled out some old pics of their time in Sudbury and showed me pics of Matthew from when he was in University, around the age of 18 yrs old. It was cool to see just how far back their friendship went and how much Matthew meant to them. Friends like that are rare...hold on to each other!!! We went to Dana'd parents place for a BBQ lunch, then headed back to pack and sadly say goodbye.
God bless you, Dana, Andy and Nathan! You each have special hearts and I am thankful and blessed that you willingly shared them with me, as well as opening up your home to me. Matthew, I will be forever greatful that you brought me down to meet your best friends, that you wanted to introduce me to that part of your life. Thank you all for sharing with me and making me feel like I belonged! Memories of this weekend will be with me always!
With Love & Prayers! -las
(Oh ya, Matthew got the pleasure of stopping in to meet my Aunt and Uncle on the way home. It was so wonderful to see them, even if only for a couple hours. And it was extra special to introduce Matthew and them. Thank you for letting Matthew and I invade your home and enjoy a meal with you!!!!) I love you!
Thursday, May 17, 2007
As The Bruises Fade...
I survived!
This is me, hard at work during our lunch break on the peak of a mountain of gabbro in the LU Conservation Area; our first mapping project.
Deep in the bush, I am hard at work, mapping in the magnificant rock wall behind me of a contact between conglomerate and argillite of the Huronian; our 4th and last mapping project along HWY 144N.
Ya, here I am again, sitting beside a wonderful exposure of Gowganda conglomerate of the Huronian. This was a mountain range of pure conglomerate which showed another great contact with the Argillite. A totally exciting find for Jill and I on our last day in the field.
Guess who? I'm standing in this photo for a size reference for the large outcrop of felsic veining within the 'two-feldspar megacrystic granite' of the Archean. I believe I actually learned a thing or two during this course!
The group of four stop for a final bush lunch on an outcrop of ?sandstone? I think. We were so blessed to have such wonderful weather for the entire 12 days in the bush!!!
Jill and I stop to take a pic of ourselves on a conglomerate ridge. You sure get to know each other when you are working in the bush together. All acceptable forms of social etiquette go out the window! LOL! Great times, Jilly Bean!
This is the whole gang, at Onaping Falls for a group photo. Thanks everyone for making the course fun, interesting and entertaining! (missing in this pic is our very cool TA, Mary-Beth...thanks for all the good times while on the road!!!)
~Now I am thrilled to be starting my summer off with a weekend trip away with Matt to meet his friends in Mississauga! ROADTRIP!!!!~
Field School is DONE!!! 12 days in the bush: 1 bottle of sunscreen, 1 can of bug spray, 1 roll of TP, 4 colourful maps and 1 very long all-nighter; ...I am free from school for the summer!
I thought I would post some pics my friend took during the course, (thanks Jill!). I am so glad I have these pics for lasting memories, since my 'war wounds' are slowly fading...
This is me, hard at work during our lunch break on the peak of a mountain of gabbro in the LU Conservation Area; our first mapping project.Deep in the bush, I am hard at work, mapping in the magnificant rock wall behind me of a contact between conglomerate and argillite of the Huronian; our 4th and last mapping project along HWY 144N.Ya, here I am again, sitting beside a wonderful exposure of Gowganda conglomerate of the Huronian. This was a mountain range of pure conglomerate which showed another great contact with the Argillite. A totally exciting find for Jill and I on our last day in the field.Guess who? I'm standing in this photo for a size reference for the large outcrop of felsic veining within the 'two-feldspar megacrystic granite' of the Archean. I believe I actually learned a thing or two during this course!The group of four stop for a final bush lunch on an outcrop of ?sandstone? I think. We were so blessed to have such wonderful weather for the entire 12 days in the bush!!!Jill and I stop to take a pic of ourselves on a conglomerate ridge. You sure get to know each other when you are working in the bush together. All acceptable forms of social etiquette go out the window! LOL! Great times, Jilly Bean!This is the whole gang, at Onaping Falls for a group photo. Thanks everyone for making the course fun, interesting and entertaining! (missing in this pic is our very cool TA, Mary-Beth...thanks for all the good times while on the road!!!)~Now I am thrilled to be starting my summer off with a weekend trip away with Matt to meet his friends in Mississauga! ROADTRIP!!!!~
Wednesday, May 9, 2007
Almost...
TWO more days!
Actually, about 1.75 days left of the Field Geology course, (Friday we will finish midafternoon). I can't wait to sleep in just once! For the last 10 days I have been getting up just before 7am to be at LU for 8am to head off into the bush, somewhere around Sudbury and engage in field mapping exercises. I have learned a ton, and probably could have learned alot more...there has just been so much information!!! My mapping skills have definately improved, but I'll wait and see what kind of report marks I get on my write ups of the various areas we have mapped. I can't believe the hiking I have done in the last 10 days! My legs and feet are sore, but it's that good sore, the one that reminds me I did some healthy physical activity...even if it is WAY more then I would do on my own. LOL! I think after 10 days in the bush, (yes, I pee in the bush daily now), I believe I am a bonified Bush Gal! Who would have guessed????
Due to my exhausting days, my evenings have been mellow. Blessed to be able to see Matt more this past week, we've been together every evening, just chilling; out for dinners, watching movies and just growing closer together. I can't think of a better way to have ended my busy days!
Time flies...in 8 days I will be heading to TO with Matt to meet his "adopting" family. His best friends have invited us to visit for the long weekend. I am excited to meet them, but obviously nervous too, as their whole families will be there, and everyone will be forming an opinion regarding my acceptance as Matt's girlfriend. hehe...If you know me well, you know me and new situations don't mix. And if you know me really really well, you know that meeting new people is cause for anxiety. So, the May long weekend promises to be an interesting tale to tell later! Pray that I am able to relax with Matt out of our everyday setting, and have fun with his close friends.
When I get back from TO I start working for the OGS (ON Geological Survey). Back to work! You know what that means!!! A change in the direction of my account balance, and a normal schedule of M-F, with evenings and weekends to spend with Matt and friends. YAHOO!!!!
Just TWO more days...Almost done....ALMOST!
Actually, about 1.75 days left of the Field Geology course, (Friday we will finish midafternoon). I can't wait to sleep in just once! For the last 10 days I have been getting up just before 7am to be at LU for 8am to head off into the bush, somewhere around Sudbury and engage in field mapping exercises. I have learned a ton, and probably could have learned alot more...there has just been so much information!!! My mapping skills have definately improved, but I'll wait and see what kind of report marks I get on my write ups of the various areas we have mapped. I can't believe the hiking I have done in the last 10 days! My legs and feet are sore, but it's that good sore, the one that reminds me I did some healthy physical activity...even if it is WAY more then I would do on my own. LOL! I think after 10 days in the bush, (yes, I pee in the bush daily now), I believe I am a bonified Bush Gal! Who would have guessed????
Due to my exhausting days, my evenings have been mellow. Blessed to be able to see Matt more this past week, we've been together every evening, just chilling; out for dinners, watching movies and just growing closer together. I can't think of a better way to have ended my busy days!
Time flies...in 8 days I will be heading to TO with Matt to meet his "adopting" family. His best friends have invited us to visit for the long weekend. I am excited to meet them, but obviously nervous too, as their whole families will be there, and everyone will be forming an opinion regarding my acceptance as Matt's girlfriend. hehe...If you know me well, you know me and new situations don't mix. And if you know me really really well, you know that meeting new people is cause for anxiety. So, the May long weekend promises to be an interesting tale to tell later! Pray that I am able to relax with Matt out of our everyday setting, and have fun with his close friends.
When I get back from TO I start working for the OGS (ON Geological Survey). Back to work! You know what that means!!! A change in the direction of my account balance, and a normal schedule of M-F, with evenings and weekends to spend with Matt and friends. YAHOO!!!!
Just TWO more days...Almost done....ALMOST!
Wednesday, May 2, 2007
The Unnatural
It's late Wednesday evening...I am exhausted, but content too. This week has been challenging and it's not over yet! Three days of Field School done, and only ten more to go...Wow...
Field School...hiking through bush and over mountains, mapping and disecting the story held within the rocks we find. Who knew such unnatural behaviour could be so addicting. Now, I use the word "addicting" very specifically. In order to become addicted to something, one much feel some sort of positive result from said engagement. I hate the bush and the bugs and the dirt and the heat...so why on earth do I find Field Work addicting? I don't believe it's the event that attracts me, but the thrill of doing something so extremely unnatural (for me); that's the drug. The entire time I am out there I wonder, who is this person within that is finding enjoyment from this activity? I think to myself, "she's a pretty cool gal, she should come around more often". Where does this adventurous gal go when I break free of the bush at the end of the day? I wish she would make an appearance more often!
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After lots of quality time with Matt over the last few weeks, this week has been a shock to both our systems...he's been sick since Monday, and we haven't been able to see each other. I miss him. Ya, we talk everyday on the phone, but it's not the same as face to face. Please pray he gets better soon, so we can enjoy each other's company once again!
Dad's moved into his own place this week. Weird...so finalizing. I hope to visit him after Field School is over. I'd really like him and Matt to meet too. Seven months per year is a long time to be away!
Field School...hiking through bush and over mountains, mapping and disecting the story held within the rocks we find. Who knew such unnatural behaviour could be so addicting. Now, I use the word "addicting" very specifically. In order to become addicted to something, one much feel some sort of positive result from said engagement. I hate the bush and the bugs and the dirt and the heat...so why on earth do I find Field Work addicting? I don't believe it's the event that attracts me, but the thrill of doing something so extremely unnatural (for me); that's the drug. The entire time I am out there I wonder, who is this person within that is finding enjoyment from this activity? I think to myself, "she's a pretty cool gal, she should come around more often". Where does this adventurous gal go when I break free of the bush at the end of the day? I wish she would make an appearance more often!
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After lots of quality time with Matt over the last few weeks, this week has been a shock to both our systems...he's been sick since Monday, and we haven't been able to see each other. I miss him. Ya, we talk everyday on the phone, but it's not the same as face to face. Please pray he gets better soon, so we can enjoy each other's company once again!
Dad's moved into his own place this week. Weird...so finalizing. I hope to visit him after Field School is over. I'd really like him and Matt to meet too. Seven months per year is a long time to be away!
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