This is about the hardest waiting period I have ever endured. I feel like I am on trial, waiting for the jury to return with my fate. Yesterday Matthew and I faced some truths which had remained omitted/hidden/avoided.
It is never easy to be broken before someone you respect, look up to and/or want to impress. It is so hard to face them with your broken past, your life's truths spilt out around you; exposed. I have never felt so naked, so vulnerable.
Now I wait.
This makes me think of my God, my Saviour. He loved me enough to allow his body to be broken and his blood to be spilt out so that I might return to my heavenly Father one day. This sacrifice goes beyond anything a human could/would do for another, yet that's not the amazing part. The most miraculous point is that Christ did it without any guarentee that I would accept his sacrifice. He exposed himself, willingly, freely; in hope, and out of love...with prayers that one day, I would realize the truth of how he suffered. That he did it for me so that I coule come Home to Him.
Christ knows better then any of us what it means to suffer, and hurt, and feel hurt by others. Wow...my God LOVES me. In this moment; today, tomorrow and forever; He's the ROCK on which I will stand!
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