On the 8th I wrote that we were back on track after a few nights of Mister sleeping with me because he was sick. He managed great going back in his crib for 2 nights, but it didn't last because his cold stuck around much longer. He was having so much trouble breathing and would wake up often coughing non-stop...so he has been sleeping with me again ever since.
Last night, after sleeping beside me for a couple hours, he woke to nurse again, and then I tried putting him in his crib and it was a no-go. He cried and cried; stood there reaching out to me. I tired laying down beside it (my bed is still pushed right up beside the crib) and touching him through the railings, trying to encourage him to lay down, but he wasn't having it. Singing didn't help either. So, I brought him back with me for the night.
Does this mean I have to go back to the first step all over again (we started this process almost 1 month ago!)? Is this going to happen every time he gets sick; we'll lose the progress we've made? When daycare reports that he no longer cries when he is put in his playpen to nap, it is so tempting to just let him cry until he gets used to his crib...but we don't want to do that to him. Plus, when he cries like that it just makes his nose stuffy again and that makes him start coughing and struggling to breathe all over again. So, crying doesn't seem right for so many reasons!
So...I have no idea what to do from here...it just seems so much easier to keep co-sleeping; it's obviously what Mister wants and likes. It is easier for me and I enjoy having him there with me too. BUT...it's not helping me and hubby get back into the same bed...Then I wonder about Mister's nighttime breastfeeding; will he keep it up as long as he is co-sleeping? Does it bother me? I don't think so. I still get a good night's sleep, even if he is waking me up 3-4 times a night for a quick feed (5-10mins). Will I ever settle this internal battle between being a wife and a mom?
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