This morning I had a job interview. I totally froze once the questions started coming, getting more complex along the way. There were things I should have been able to rhyme off and POOF, my mind was blank. There was geological information I should know, but didn't; or at least wasn't confident in what I thought I knew. The practical portion of the interview was a 1-hour research exercise, exactly what I figured it would be...and I have no idea how I did at it; certainly 1 hour is not nearly enough time to do thorough research; but the entry template was awful (unclear, disorderly and in desperate need of formatting - it was a real distraction for me!)
Oh, how upsetting to want this position so much and know how well I could do at the job, but feel like I failed to market myself adequately for the position. I also learned the identity of two of the other candidates and one is definitely strong competition (the other just wants interview experience; doesn't really want the job - from what I heard).
I have to stop thinking like this. What's done is done. I have to lay my burden at the feet of Jesus and trust that if I am meant to have this position, I will get it; and if not then God has something even better in store for me. (But it is so hard not to feel like a failure these days: in the job market, as a mother who can't physically care for her child and even as a wife).
God comfort me!
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